Sunday, January 10, 2010

Starting the journey anew...

Calvin and I have once again decided to take up the baton to lead another youth expedition.

It was, admittedly, a decision I struggled with for a long time, because I now know the intensity and the hard, hard, hard work ahead that I was getting into, having done this once before in 2008. It would be a HUGE commitment, one that would consume my mental and physical energy, and a significant portion of my waking hours outside of work. There were also fears... fears of not meeting expectations, fears of not raising enough funds, fears of disappointing the volunteers and youths.... the cons and all the reasons not to organise the expedition are endless. 

There were a few things that convinced me and turned me around though. First, Calvin was extremely passionate about organising this a second time. His confidence, and strength of belief in the success of the initiative was contagious. He was so sure, and so certain, that my doubts gradually diminished as his enthusiasm mounted.

Secondly, my belief that character-moulding, and the empowerment of youths cannot be done in short stints. It is a long process, and day-to-day, week-to-week effort, love and heart needs to be invested. The expedition journey, spanning 6 months, is 1 way that I know I will be able to see positive change. Next, the bonds that were built and the memories that were shared. I get absolutely sentimental just thinking about it, because I grew to love every single individual on the team, for their amazing strengths - even their weaknesses - and marvelled at how wonderfully we were brought together for purposeful contribution. It is friendship that will last forever... there is just an unspoken connection and bond that builds when you've been together overseas with someone for extended lengths of time, and been through tears, sweat, laughter and all. Nothing will ever take that away.

I feel blessed by the experience. Blessings that I can never fully recount and describe with words alone. It has strengthened me, and given me countless opportunities to be grateful for every moment that I am alive.

I received many gifts of love through the journey, so... hence... now... I am ready to give back again, to serve, to contribute, to share, to commit.

It will not be an easy journey, but it is one that I am now making with conviction of spirit and clarity of mind. I am back... and together with Calvin, and many more like-minded volunteers and individuals, this expedition will be yet another success story to remember.

1 comment:

Gillian said...

Go, Serene! All the fears that you mentioned are the ones rising up in my head when I think of actually trying to do this very first Cybercare Expedition. Now you tell me how you faced the fears the first Expedition and we will follow in your footsteps ;>. You go, girl!

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